My Big Break

Have you ever just gone along with things and then afterwards you think about what you did and you’re not sure if you feel good about it or not? That just happened to me today. I’ve wanted to model in the “Big Leagues” for a long time. I’ve been doing some local shoots and commercial ads, but I’ve never been given an opportunity to do something really huge, you know? A few weeks ago I got an amazing offer for a major ad agency. I was ecstatic! I was so pumped up! Finally, I could get into an arena for serious models. The shoot was in New York, of course. I flew out here a few days ago and had a meeting with the exec’s. They said I had a great look and they wanted to use me for an upcoming ad campaign. This is so huge! I feel like I have finally arrived.
I went to the shoot today. Shortly after I got there they said that in order to get the look they wanted it would be best if I took off my clothes. I thought they meant down to my underwear, which I’ve done before, but no, they meant all of my clothes. I was a little shocked, but I didn’t want to make any waves. These guys are about to make me very famous, so I went along with what they wanted.
Now, I’m back in my hotel room and alone. I keep thinking about what I did. I guess it’s not like I did anything immoral and, as far as I could tell, the pictures aren’t going to be full frontal nudity or pornographic in nature. It’s probably okay. I guess what I’m bummed about is I just don’t know how my friends and family are going to react. I hope my Mom doesn’t get pissed or my youth director and the kids in my youth group. I was pretty tight with them when I was in High School. I’d hate it if anyone was offended by the pictures.
Maybe this is just the way it is in the big leagues. I’ll probably have to get used to it. But something about it feels wrong to me. I suppose models do it all the time. It’s the nature of the game. I’ll probably get over my feelings about it. I hope it’s soon.